Live from the passenger seat I come to you from some scarey part of West Virginia. The road is desolate and everyone is wearing overalls without shirts. Ha just kidding they have shirts on it’s cold outside. Anyway hubs and I are driving to Charlotte North Carolina. That is our destination and according to the GPS we have about 4 hours before we arrive. I just made a Youtube video. You can find that at MsOverweighted on Youtube. I am so bored. What does a road trip mean to me?? In one word SNACKS. Yup that’s right I love to snack in the car. It helps to fight boredom. But now since it’s January and I have set my goals for the year…well losing 8 pounds is on there so snacking is not an option. And believe it or not the hubba bubba doesn’t want to talk about feelings for 8 hours straight. His, mine or anybody elses. Whatever. So the reason for the trip to Charlotte is to check out the city and see if it someplace where we may want to live in the near future. As my job with my company is being outsourced this year it is time for us to make a new plan. That plan includes moving away from the Cleveland area to get out of these awful winters. Blah! They suck. I am hoping to take lots of pics and eat lots of yummy local food which I will make the time to photograph and blog about. I finally got it together enough to put 2011’s goals on paper. I’m not gonna lie I know they need some tweaking and some work but at least I got have something to work with. I think I will do a post dedicated solely to those goals. Hmm by looking out the window it looks like we are almost at Charleston West Virginia I think I hear banjos playing.
ONE YEAR October 22, 2010
Today is my 1 year SURGIVERSARY!! One year ago today I made the decision to alter my body and my life forever. One year ago today I put 100% of my faith and hope into the hands of my surgeon to give me a tool that would ultimately help me to create a new life and future for myself. I was given a tool. Nothing more, nothing less. I could then decide how I would use it. Every day is a challenge and every day I try and make the best choices. Sometimes I stumble and fall. But I get right back up and try again. I had run out of hope for myself. I was morbidly obese. I was sick with diabetes. I knew it would ultimately kill me. I chose to change my destiny. I started moving my body. I started believing that I could do it. I would wake up and say to myself I can’t run today. I am to tired. I don’t feel good. It’s to hot or cold out. But then I would start bargaining with myself telling myself that I don’t have to run. I can walk. Just get up and walk. That’s all you have to do. Just walk. And I would find when I did get up and walk. I would start to run. I would think, OK now you are running. If I can’t run all the way, what’s the worst that could happen, maybe I have to walk back home. No biggie. But I didn’t walk back home. I kept running, I pushed myself, I made deals, I thought about rewards, I threatened myself. I screamed at myself “you will never have another Starbucks coffee again if you don’t keep going”. I set up new challenges. I told myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I ran in darkness so no one would see me. I wore my sunglasses so I would not have to make eye contact. I kept my eyes down and stared at the ground. Ten miles of staring at the ground. I felt shame. I felt inadequate. Sometimes I cried. But I kept going. And here I am one year later. I have so much more to do. I am not 100% yet. Maybe I never will be but I will continue to keep moving forward. One foot in front of the other.
Here are some before and afters!
AND LOOK AT ME NOW!
SUNDAY RUNDAY October 17, 2010
Good morning / afternoon from Starbucks. I am here with my very best friend
I know exciting right? What can I tell you? I don’t smoke, I don’t drink alcohol except on extremely rare occassions, I don’t drink ANYTHING carbonated. I think soda pop is poison! I watch what I eat and I work out a lot. So if my (sometimes) twice daily Starbucks habit bothers you well then get the latte heck out of here! No not really don’t go away nobody else reads this blog. I need all two of you. So back to business. I did a 6 mile run this morning. The day could not be better for it. Oh my gosh it is sunny and in the 50’s. Just a great fall day. Perfect running weather. I wore my new half marathon shirt of course. I pretty much wear it every chance I get! I can’t help it if I am proud.
That is a wow I am soooo over this look. Anywho….I did great I felt like I had some good energy going and I was pushing myself. While trying to maintain a good heart rate. Not going to fast that I would wear myself out. And then it happened at around mile 4. F’n knee pain. Seriously WTF???? This is not what I need. I have not worked this hard for this long to get wear I am physically just to throw it all down the drain because of my knee. This is so FRUSTRATING. DAMN DAMN DAMMIT! Well because I am an ass I just kept going…because well that’s just what I do. I keep going. So now here I sit at my home away from home crying in my decaf espresso. Thinking I better go home and ice this thing again. Besides I am sweaty and disgusting and people are starting to look at me funny. Maybe they are just jealous of my hot headband and super subtle shirt.
Happy Super Autumnal Saturday! What a terrific sunny cool day it is here in NE Ohio. This is how I feel today:
This is a seriously TA DA!!! moment. So here is the thing. I just after all this time figured out how to use the self timer on my phone and my NIKON. WTF??? It is so easy what an idget I am for not thinking about this sooner. Now I can take photos that are actually further away than
the end of my arm. This opens up a whole new world to me. I actually was trying to send some photos of me and the two black furry kids to my husband who is STILL out of town. He will hopefully be back on Wednesday. So the first couple of days of freedom are great! Wow I can do what I want, eat what I want, sleep when I want, have total full control over the TV. Then on the 3rd day I start getting bored. And by the 5th day I start getting lonely. And by this time 2 1/2 weeks later I am just stir crazy. I am talking to the dogs wayyyyy more than is normal. Here’s the problem. He is out making money and because he is gone and I am painfully bored I want to spend money. Umm hello I think that is counter productive. But at least I figured out the self timers.
So I have recently had some knee problems. I think it started the first week of doing boot camp. Call me crazy but I think that maybe I shouldn’t have done two hundred gazillion lunges on my first day of class. What do you think boot camp lady who is supposed to be expert professional? Hmm?? And btw please stop telling me that I will only get out what I put into it. I think I get that. Excuse me miss inappropriately to tight camel toe making ugly camouflage workout pants wearing boot camp Nazi but in the last year I have lost 100 pounds and taken my fitness level from a big fat 0 to running a half marathon. I think I understand how to push myself and take it to the next level. And now I am having knee issues. So thanks for that. And yes I am just stupid enough to go back…why?? because I made a commitment to myself to complete 6 weeks of boot camp and so that’s what I am going to do. Now however I am faced with suffering from sometimes extreme knee pain and finding it necessary to spend precious minutes from my day icing the damn thing. Yesterday I did a 4 mile run and by the time I was finished and back home it was starting to swell. I iced it and relaxed for awhile.
Then at the request of my animals who are sick and tired of me I decided to go up to Borders and do some reading and blogging. After being up there for a couple of hours I had to come back home. I was having a lot of throbbing aching pain. So today I am forced to rest it. And I don’t want to. I am at a point that my weight loss has been stalled for while and I just need to up my exercise and work through this plateau. Ok so it might help if I slowed down on my steady diet of chocolate but what the heck I have to keep my life worth living. So this morning I did some P90X abs and upper body work. I am giving my knee a break. And I hope that tomorrow I can do a run of at least 6 miles. Pretty soon I will have snow up to my ass and not be able to get out there and run. I have to take advantage of these nice weather days. Ok so that’s my rant today.
So what is your favorite way to relax on the weekend?? This is mine.
Ok so it’s not a very exciting drink. Just a quad decaf iced espresso with a little milk. But boy do I love it. I get so much enjoyment from simply sitting here relaxing enjoying my drink and spend some quality time with my laptop. So because of knee issues I was sidelined from running this morning so I did some serious ab work with P90X. I guess it worked since I can barely move now. Afterward I made the most scrumptious smoothie with some fruit I froze a little while back. Strawberries, blueberries and banananananana. Really good with about half a container of light vanilla yogurt. I put it in my cute purple “to go” cup.
I am also enjoying another favorite snack
When the cat’s away…the wife will go shopping October 10, 2010
Yup today was a very successful day of shopping. My husband is not going to want to go away for work again. Do I feel bad that he is off working hard and I take my day off to shop, shop and shop some more, umm ok I do feel sort of bad. But then I just look at these babies and suddenly I feel a little better.
I did not take a picture but I also bought a pair of jeans. What you want to know more? Oh ok they are Levis. What you want to know more about them? Like the size?? Ohhhhh that’s right SIZE 4. And for my Spanish speaking friends CUATRO. Ok so maybe they run a little big. Or they have a little extra stretch. But they are still a 4.
Almost as exciting I made a new discovery at Costco. Of course it’s Saturday Sample day. They cast out the line and hooked me with the first bite with this stuff
Yummy. The first thing you taste it the sweet raspberry with a smokiness similar to barbecue sauce. That is quickly followed by a soft mild heat from the jalapeños. The first thing I did when I got home was put some light cream cheese on a cracker and top it with my Raspberry Chipotle Sauce. I can’t wait to try this in some other recipes. Tomorrow I have a 6.5 mile run planned. And maybe just maybe a little bit more shopping. I am on the hunt for a new purse / bag. I have had some knee issues today so I am gonna sit here and ice it and watch a movie. Toodles!
FOOD DAYS! October 8, 2010
So for the last 2 days at work we have had food days. Yesterday our team brought in food for a baby shower. And today the company supplied a catered lunch for Excellence in Customer Service Week. I work for a very large insurance company. So for the last 2 days I have had to struggle to get thru the workday without bingeing! And guess what? Hmm do you have a guess? Well here it is people I have FAILED. Actually failed miserably would be more accurate way to describe it. So now I get to take myself thru the entire weekend carrying around the shame on my back like some kind of growth. It feels like my big scarlet letter. The fact that I have an unbelievable lack of self control is one thing. The reality is that this junk food makes me literally sick. I cannot eat it and function. You would think that would stop me in my tracks. But noooo it doesn’t. When there is a laid out table on the other side of my little cubicle wall and I can not only rise up and take a peak, but smell it all day long and watch my co workers indulging. Ahhh it makes me nuts. So this now starts a weekend of damage control. So instead of eating intuitively for the next couple of days I am going to have to really watch my caloric intake. I had planned on a run tonight and then a long run on either Saturday or Sunday. And of course I would love to get a Jazzercise class in. My hubby is out of town for work so I am on my own this weekend. Just me and my pups. Hopefully that will help keep me in check! I have 10 more 20 more pounds to lose. Only I can control what goes in my mouth. I am going to start crossing my fingers and hoping I find the willpower. Ahh and note to self. STOP EATING SUGAR STUPID! That will be my new thing SESS.
This is the remnant of the brownie I ate at after lunch:
I think I should also have this tattooed on my body: