Live from the passenger seat I come to you from some scarey part of West Virginia. The road is desolate and everyone is wearing overalls without shirts. Ha just kidding they have shirts on it’s cold outside. Anyway hubs and I are driving to Charlotte North Carolina. That is our destination and according to the GPS we have about 4 hours before we arrive. I just made a Youtube video. You can find that at MsOverweighted on Youtube. I am so bored. What does a road trip mean to me?? In one word SNACKS. Yup that’s right I love to snack in the car. It helps to fight boredom. But now since it’s January and I have set my goals for the year…well losing 8 pounds is on there so snacking is not an option. And believe it or not the hubba bubba doesn’t want to talk about feelings for 8 hours straight. His, mine or anybody elses. Whatever. So the reason for the trip to Charlotte is to check out the city and see if it someplace where we may want to live in the near future. As my job with my company is being outsourced this year it is time for us to make a new plan. That plan includes moving away from the Cleveland area to get out of these awful winters. Blah! They suck. I am hoping to take lots of pics and eat lots of yummy local food which I will make the time to photograph and blog about. I finally got it together enough to put 2011’s goals on paper. I’m not gonna lie I know they need some tweaking and some work but at least I got have something to work with. I think I will do a post dedicated solely to those goals. Hmm by looking out the window it looks like we are almost at Charleston West Virginia I think I hear banjos playing.
Sweet success December 5, 2010
Right out of the gate I have to talk about the Reindeer Run this morning. I did it. Yay it was brutal cold but I made it. Don’t I look ready???
I was ready to get my run on! My stomach looks gigantic in this pic! Wow note to self maybe I want to work on the self photo taking skills. Anyway I woke up about 6am and decided to risk frostbite by tip toeing from my room to the shower. I think I could see my breath. I’m not gonna lie it was really cold this morning. Since I got up early and I didn’t need to leave until about 7:45am that gave me plenty of time to work on the future cover picture of Runners World. Please excuse my swollen (looks like I partied all night) face. I hate to disappoint but unless you consider hiding under my electric blanket with a certain Min Pin I know by 10pm a party.
I was ready this morning. I just tried to forget that my sore throat, cough and tight chest was making a return. Other than that I did get a pretty good nights sleep. I hate to make this all about me….well ok who else would it really be about? I mean really who else matters. But geez my face looks so fat. It looks like I have put on about 50 pounds since last Saturday. Hey it could be possible. Anyway I bundled up and headed out. Of course my first stop was at Starbucks for a Tall hot coffee. I needed a little something to warm me up. By the time I reached the race and found a
completely illegal parking spot I only had about 15 minutes to get ready and get to the start. I put on my new purpley hat, gloves and my fab black and pink polka dot spi belt and took off. Running along Lake Erie while it is 25 degrees outside is really not what I would consider optimal conditions. My little piggy’s were freezing. There were some interesting things to look at though. People were very creative when it came to there outfits. I seen more than one Christmas tree atop someone’s head. So as I made my way to the start the first major fail of the day happened. My ipod was completely dead! I raged at myself for not checking it in advance of heading out. I really needed some music to keep me going today. I’m not gonna lie it was pretty miserable listening to my ragged, gasping breaths for 30 minutes. I guess I lined up a little to far to the back because I had to spend the first several minutes weaving my way thru children under 3 and women over 80. At least I have 2 groups of people I can take out! What can I tell you I am a competitor I have no shame. Unfortunately from the first step I had a really tough time controlling my breathing and pace. I was up, down and all around. I know taking some time off from running and being sick has a lot to do with it. But it was really getting frustrating for me. And have I mentioned how cold it was? I thought my pace was pretty good, until of course I got to the finish and was able to see my actual time. I felt like I was doing about 6 minute miles…turns out it was about double that! However my time was about 5 minutes better than my first 5k in May. So I think that is progress. I cannot help but to compare myself to everyone else out there. I always hear people say….run your own race…but you know what??? I want to beat people. I look at these girls out there who are half my age and my main thought is I have to pass them. I have to get a better time. I have to prove that I am not to old, to fat or to out of shape. But in the next moment I have someone who granted is much younger than I am but probably out weighed me by at least 100 pounds…and she passed me. I could see how much she was struggling. She was giving her 150% . I wanted to tell her good job, go girl you are amazing and you can do it. I didn’t but what I did do was let her pass and I followed her thru the finish line. I know she wasn’t thinking about me. I know she was not thinking if only I could beat the old woman in the purple hat. But I am glad she passed me. I hope she left that race today and told everyone she knows what a great job she did. So anyway I made it. And it felt good. I was thinking about it afterward and I don’t get into a groove and find my sweet spot while running until at least the 2nd or 3rd mile. I do my best running during longer distances. That is so foreign and weird for me to consider that I am a distance runner. Hmm. Oh yes I am also proud to report that I refrained from attaching the extremely annoying jingle bells they handed out to my shoes. And to all of those that did…well I think that we should tack on at least 5 minutes to your finish time as a penalty for being so obnoxious!
So here I am after the race!
Lake Erie in the distance
Oh yes and in even bigger news I made my very first Vlog today on YouTube. Go check me out at MsOverweighted. You can see for your very own eyes how lame I really am.
TO EARLY??? November 15, 2010
Today I am blogging on the road. We are driving back to Cleveland from spending the weekend in Michigan with my family. We had tons o’ fun but now must get home to these guys:
Lucky for us we have a friend to hire to help us take care of them. We could take little Casey with us but not big Jed. So like real kids it’s not fair to take one and not the other. So they both have to stay home and have a sitter. The last 3 days have been busy. Filled with shopping and eating. On Friday and Saturday we went to BIRCH RUN OUTLET MALL. This place is huge. We did not realize that it was a special weekend for the area. They had huge sales for what is called WIDOW HUNTERS WEEKEND. I guess there are so many deer hunters and its such a big deal that hey have spectacular sales catered to all the ladies. I felt like I was out Black Friday. Or maybe the last weekend before Christmas. If our country is currently in a recession I can assure you that these shoppers were not feeling it. The stores were packed and the lines were 20 people deep. But the sales were great. I found lots of great stuff. And they had a Bare Escentuals outlet. I heard the angels singing when I walked thru the door.
The shopping was the secondary reason for going. The primary reason for being there was a charity event at a golf/ ski resort where they have an amazing array of Christmas trees, wreaths, and gift baskets. They all have different themes and the trees are valued up to $1000. They sell raffle tickets to put in for those you like. It is a really fun evening that is super festive with good food and friends. Friday night is a closed to the public VIP night. So they have yummy “heavy” appetizers. So for my family that means noshing on a full meal. And you wonder where I get it??? To finish up the event they have a brunch today (Sunday) and they will draw for the raffles this afternoon. Hubby and I decided to skip the brunch today and head home. I have to be at work tomorrow and I did not want to put off the 5 hour drive back. Plus I can’t really enjoy the heavy foods and the “all you can eat” mindset at the brunch. I would have loved to but decided it best to pass this time. Trust me there has been nothing but food food food all weekend.
Just curious….is it to early for this guy?
Yup that’s right it’s Mr. Clause. I cannot believe that we are speeding like a stray bullet towards the holiday season already. It seems like this year has flown by. Here a pic of me and the big guy.
And here is some of the family on the way to Friday nights event.
So start practicing you will be saying Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas before you can believe it.
ONE YEAR October 22, 2010
Today is my 1 year SURGIVERSARY!! One year ago today I made the decision to alter my body and my life forever. One year ago today I put 100% of my faith and hope into the hands of my surgeon to give me a tool that would ultimately help me to create a new life and future for myself. I was given a tool. Nothing more, nothing less. I could then decide how I would use it. Every day is a challenge and every day I try and make the best choices. Sometimes I stumble and fall. But I get right back up and try again. I had run out of hope for myself. I was morbidly obese. I was sick with diabetes. I knew it would ultimately kill me. I chose to change my destiny. I started moving my body. I started believing that I could do it. I would wake up and say to myself I can’t run today. I am to tired. I don’t feel good. It’s to hot or cold out. But then I would start bargaining with myself telling myself that I don’t have to run. I can walk. Just get up and walk. That’s all you have to do. Just walk. And I would find when I did get up and walk. I would start to run. I would think, OK now you are running. If I can’t run all the way, what’s the worst that could happen, maybe I have to walk back home. No biggie. But I didn’t walk back home. I kept running, I pushed myself, I made deals, I thought about rewards, I threatened myself. I screamed at myself “you will never have another Starbucks coffee again if you don’t keep going”. I set up new challenges. I told myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I ran in darkness so no one would see me. I wore my sunglasses so I would not have to make eye contact. I kept my eyes down and stared at the ground. Ten miles of staring at the ground. I felt shame. I felt inadequate. Sometimes I cried. But I kept going. And here I am one year later. I have so much more to do. I am not 100% yet. Maybe I never will be but I will continue to keep moving forward. One foot in front of the other.
Here are some before and afters!
AND LOOK AT ME NOW!
SUNDAY RUNDAY October 17, 2010
Good morning / afternoon from Starbucks. I am here with my very best friend
I know exciting right? What can I tell you? I don’t smoke, I don’t drink alcohol except on extremely rare occassions, I don’t drink ANYTHING carbonated. I think soda pop is poison! I watch what I eat and I work out a lot. So if my (sometimes) twice daily Starbucks habit bothers you well then get the latte heck out of here! No not really don’t go away nobody else reads this blog. I need all two of you. So back to business. I did a 6 mile run this morning. The day could not be better for it. Oh my gosh it is sunny and in the 50’s. Just a great fall day. Perfect running weather. I wore my new half marathon shirt of course. I pretty much wear it every chance I get! I can’t help it if I am proud.
That is a wow I am soooo over this look. Anywho….I did great I felt like I had some good energy going and I was pushing myself. While trying to maintain a good heart rate. Not going to fast that I would wear myself out. And then it happened at around mile 4. F’n knee pain. Seriously WTF???? This is not what I need. I have not worked this hard for this long to get wear I am physically just to throw it all down the drain because of my knee. This is so FRUSTRATING. DAMN DAMN DAMMIT! Well because I am an ass I just kept going…because well that’s just what I do. I keep going. So now here I sit at my home away from home crying in my decaf espresso. Thinking I better go home and ice this thing again. Besides I am sweaty and disgusting and people are starting to look at me funny. Maybe they are just jealous of my hot headband and super subtle shirt.
So what is your favorite way to relax on the weekend?? This is mine.
Ok so it’s not a very exciting drink. Just a quad decaf iced espresso with a little milk. But boy do I love it. I get so much enjoyment from simply sitting here relaxing enjoying my drink and spend some quality time with my laptop. So because of knee issues I was sidelined from running this morning so I did some serious ab work with P90X. I guess it worked since I can barely move now. Afterward I made the most scrumptious smoothie with some fruit I froze a little while back. Strawberries, blueberries and banananananana. Really good with about half a container of light vanilla yogurt. I put it in my cute purple “to go” cup.
I am also enjoying another favorite snack
FOOD DAYS! October 8, 2010
So for the last 2 days at work we have had food days. Yesterday our team brought in food for a baby shower. And today the company supplied a catered lunch for Excellence in Customer Service Week. I work for a very large insurance company. So for the last 2 days I have had to struggle to get thru the workday without bingeing! And guess what? Hmm do you have a guess? Well here it is people I have FAILED. Actually failed miserably would be more accurate way to describe it. So now I get to take myself thru the entire weekend carrying around the shame on my back like some kind of growth. It feels like my big scarlet letter. The fact that I have an unbelievable lack of self control is one thing. The reality is that this junk food makes me literally sick. I cannot eat it and function. You would think that would stop me in my tracks. But noooo it doesn’t. When there is a laid out table on the other side of my little cubicle wall and I can not only rise up and take a peak, but smell it all day long and watch my co workers indulging. Ahhh it makes me nuts. So this now starts a weekend of damage control. So instead of eating intuitively for the next couple of days I am going to have to really watch my caloric intake. I had planned on a run tonight and then a long run on either Saturday or Sunday. And of course I would love to get a Jazzercise class in. My hubby is out of town for work so I am on my own this weekend. Just me and my pups. Hopefully that will help keep me in check! I have 10 more 20 more pounds to lose. Only I can control what goes in my mouth. I am going to start crossing my fingers and hoping I find the willpower. Ahh and note to self. STOP EATING SUGAR STUPID! That will be my new thing SESS.
This is the remnant of the brownie I ate at after lunch:
I think I should also have this tattooed on my body: