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ONE YEAR October 22, 2010

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Today is my 1 year SURGIVERSARY!!  One year ago today I made the decision to alter my body and my life forever.  One year ago today I put 100% of my faith and hope into the hands of my surgeon to give me a tool that would ultimately help me to create a new life and future for myself.  I was given a tool.  Nothing more, nothing less.  I could then decide how I would use it.  Every day is a challenge and every day I try and make the best choices.  Sometimes I stumble and fall.  But I get right back up and try again.  I had run out of hope for myself.  I was morbidly obese.  I was sick with diabetes.  I knew it would ultimately kill me.  I chose to change my destiny.  I started moving my body.  I started believing that I could do it.  I would wake up and say to myself I can’t run today.  I am to tired.  I don’t feel good.  It’s to hot or cold out.  But then I would start bargaining with myself telling myself that I don’t have to run.  I can walk.  Just get up and walk.  That’s all you have to do.  Just walk.  And I would find when I did get up and walk.  I would start to run.  I would think, OK now you are running.  If I can’t run all the way, what’s the worst that could happen, maybe I have to walk back home.  No biggie.  But I didn’t walk back home.  I kept running, I pushed myself, I made deals, I thought about rewards, I threatened myself.  I screamed at myself “you will never have another Starbucks coffee again if you don’t keep going”.  I set up new challenges.   I told myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I ran in darkness so no one would see me.  I wore my sunglasses so I would not have to make eye contact.  I kept my eyes down and stared at the ground.  Ten miles of staring at the ground.  I felt shame.  I felt inadequate.  Sometimes I cried.  But I kept going.  And here I am one year later.  I have so much more to do.  I am not 100% yet.  Maybe I never will be but I will continue to keep moving forward.  One foot in front of the other. 

Here are some before and afters!

This was 2006.  I thought I looked really good that day. that’s me on the right.

AND LOOK AT ME NOW!

10/2010

9/2010

  7/20108/2010

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4 Responses to “ONE YEAR”

  1. What a great post – congrats on all of your accomplishments! Your mental toughness is seriously something to admire (and couldn’t a ban from Sbucks get mostly anybody to do anything?!)

    Good for you, and happy surgiversary!

  2. thebettylife Says:

    WOW you look amazing. What a transformation!

  3. DiningAndDishing Says:

    Happy Surgiversay! You look great :).

    – Beth @ http://www.DiningAndDishing.com

  4. Tyly Says:

    OH MY GOSH! You look amazing!!

    I’m so glad you left a comment on my blog so I knew to come check you out! I can’t wait to read more!!!


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