So for the last 2 days at work we have had food days. Yesterday our team brought in food for a baby shower. And today the company supplied a catered lunch for Excellence in Customer Service Week. I work for a very large insurance company. So for the last 2 days I have had to struggle to get thru the workday without bingeing! And guess what? Hmm do you have a guess? Well here it is people I have FAILED. Actually failed miserably would be more accurate way to describe it. So now I get to take myself thru the entire weekend carrying around the shame on my back like some kind of growth. It feels like my big scarlet letter. The fact that I have an unbelievable lack of self control is one thing. The reality is that this junk food makes me literally sick. I cannot eat it and function. You would think that would stop me in my tracks. But noooo it doesn’t. When there is a laid out table on the other side of my little cubicle wall and I can not only rise up and take a peak, but smell it all day long and watch my co workers indulging. Ahhh it makes me nuts. So this now starts a weekend of damage control. So instead of eating intuitively for the next couple of days I am going to have to really watch my caloric intake. I had planned on a run tonight and then a long run on either Saturday or Sunday. And of course I would love to get a Jazzercise class in. My hubby is out of town for work so I am on my own this weekend. Just me and my pups. Hopefully that will help keep me in check! I have 10 more 20 more pounds to lose. Only I can control what goes in my mouth. I am going to start crossing my fingers and hoping I find the willpower. Ahh and note to self. STOP EATING SUGAR STUPID! That will be my new thing SESS.
This is the remnant of the brownie I ate at after lunch:
I think I should also have this tattooed on my body: